What Do I Have?

It seems that when I look at myself, I don’t know what to do with myself besides what I already do. I know it sounds kind of funny at first, but if you understand the words I’m saying, you understand what it means to constantly be a slave to your habits and desires. What can I do to change this? Nothing. Absolutely nothing. Because it’s in Christ that I can ever achieve anything, including my desire to change my old self into someone who is even remotely like Jesus Christ. He is the goal. And I pray that in my weakness he would give me his perfect strength so that I wouldn’t hall around the old person that I once used to be. Oh what a wretched person I am. Tired. Ready to give him what I got. And all I got is me. And that’s all he asks for.